That guy met me again when I was walking on a strange street which I’d never seen before. I came closer and I realised that he’s the one I really missed. We talked together and finally went to his house. There I met his dad, I lowered my head when I saw him, we went to his computer room. Wow, exactly as what I’ve seen in his pic, I thought. Then, after he showed me what he usually does on the net, he took my hands, pushed me into his bed and started to kiss me. I, who was missing him so much, pushed him closer to my body and kissed him passionately. He started to take my shirt off , I was laying there, enjoying what he did. Suddenly I felt something’s trilling in my pocket, but I ignored it as if nothing’s trilling, I started kissing his neck and the thing in my pocket started to trill harder. He then unzipped my trouser and was about to touch my P when the fucking thing started calling me loudly;

“WOOOOOOOOOOOOYYYYY … WAKE UP!! YOU LAZY COW!! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING THERE?!? THERE’S A SURPRISE FOR YOU, ANSWER!!”

I woke up and said,”Hello?!?”

But no answer from the caller :(

I looked at all the things around me … and I realised that I was just dreaming … he’s gone!!! This voice alarm is so fucking annoying … if I find the girl who has recorded her voice I would like to kill her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SURE, I WILL!!!

…..

But unfortunately ….

…..

it’s my own voice :(

I looked at the clock … it’s still 02:11 AM.

:(

Have you ever heard a jobless someone who just bought a new thing? If you do, did you ask yourself like,”where does the money come from?!?”?

This afternoon I got an appointment with a temporary employment agency in another city. I came in and I saw all the teenage girls working there. TEENS!
“Good afternoon! I’ve been called by one of you last week for this function” I greeted and gave the advertisement paper to a girl.
“Do you already have a CV?”
“As you can see its paper is printed by totaljobs site, where someone can apply and send CV online. I have sent my CV, otherwise nobody should know my home number, of course.”

*I was thinking like,”hopeloseeeee …. hopeloseeeee these children!*

The girl who has called me last week didn’t attend there so she couldn’t take my CV because its in another computer. The shit part is that the job starts from 07:00 AM till 04:00 PM, Monday till Thursday. The time is not normal and the place isn’t near by my place. So it’s again … cancelled. Annoying, huh?

The temporary employment agency is located inside a shopping centre so when I came out, I went to the cafe, Greek’s style and I sat opposite to my parents, drinking coffee.
“Mom, can I use your mobile to check my money?”
She gave it to me, I called my bank and heard the information. I thought I’d not have money, but … to my surprise I could even buy an I-Pod Mini!! Wohoo!!!

But you know, I am not the girl who buy something I don’t need. I need a new mobile, a smaller one! Because my Nokia 3650 is so damn big! I use it only to take picture (do you believe i am not miss ring - ring, too?) and I bought it in another country. I looked at the I-Pod Mini, was about to buy it but no … I decided to just buy a smaller mobile phone so I started to explore all the phone’s shops there and finally arrived at Dixons. I wanted to buy Nokia 6230, but uhmm … it’s not a prepaid phone, I am not allowed to buy abonnee yet hehe! Another option: still Nokia 6230, but it’s not simlock free, it’s T-Mobile and I don’t trust its gsm provider, I want KPN, it’s a must for me. And this is the first time that I bought another phone, other than Nokia, I bought Sony Ericsson K300i, the blue and silver colours, it’s simlock free, I can use all the gsm card and it’s a bit more expensive than the other, just because uhmm … it’s simlock free! And I thought to save the rest of my money for another things :)

My friend asked me,”You are jobless, really?”
Me,”Yes! Otherwise I shouldn’t look for a job!”
He,”So? Where did that money come from?!?”
Me,”Don’t ask me! I myself have no idea! Only God knows! I just know that I just bought a new mobile phone! Wohoo!”

I and my sister have Nokia 3650 (I got the blue one and she got the silver one). But her Nokia is broken, so she now uses Sony Ericsson T610. When I bought K300i I didn’t realise that my sister also uses Ericsson, later when I was in the car I thought,”why did I buy a similar phone again as what my sister has? I just realised it now!” We always have same phone all the times! When I had Nokia 3310, she also bought 3310, when I was in another country, asking my dad to buy Nokia 3650, she also chose the same phone, now that she uses Ericsson, I also have Ericsson. Do we have the similar thoughts just because we are sisters? huahahahahah! From the clothes till mobile phone! In total I now have 4 mobiles: 1 mobile is very old one which I have never used it again, its not Nokia, no idea what kind of merk it is, I got it from someone few years ago, another is Nokia 3510 which I rarely use! The third one is Nokia 3650 and the latest one is what I just bought today. And all of the phones I have still work! heheheh :D

When I felt tired, when I was about to give up, when I felt so annoyed, I was sitting in the corner, praying, crying and hoping for a better day. Today I woke up without remembering all the bad times I had, so different … I feel as if I’ve never gotten those bad moments. I lost my patience, was hoping to be strong again and today … everything’s changed, I feel that I’m fine!

If it’s not the fate to keep something, I give my life and troubles to Someone who’s above from everything, I just let Him to handle my everything. I don’t care what the others are thinking about this, they probably think I am such a kiddo. Okay then I am a kiddo and I cry easily, but I am a believer. I believe that He already has a wonderful plans in my life, far from what I’ve expected, far from what I think :) and I believe that everything has an aim, He has aim why I have to get all of the things around, bad or good moments, all of those have aim.

Now I am preparing myself to apply at another company in another city. If I get that job it means that its job is for me, but if I don’t get it, I believe that He’ll offer a better job for me. I hope that I will not be nervous when I am having a meeting with them, and yes, for those of you who don’t know yet, I am sure you don’t know this yet, but my way to talk is so stammer, my nerve doesn’t allow me to talk clearly, it stops my mouth from talking.

God Bless You all! :)

- Leila - Gedwongen Huwelijk (The forced marriage)
This is a true story. a French - Moroccan teenage girl named Leila is forced to marry a man whom she didn’t want. The man whom she didn’t love would slap her, she fought for her freedom, dignity. I don’t own this book yet, maybe will own it later if my previous book is finished hehe …

- 3 x Shopaholic and Shopalicious by Sophia Kinsella
Just a chicklit , the same author of “Can you keep a secret.” I also don’t have these books yet. Thinking to buy? But I am still thinking to buy another story of Dan Brown.

- Het Bernini Mysterie - Dan Brown
Same author of the Da Vinci Code. I don’t know whether I’ll buy the english version or not. Don’t own this book yet.

- The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
I own this book. Of course.

- Maps for Lost Lovers - Nadeem Aslam
I own this book, but I haven’t read it yet :D ArgHHhHhhHh!!

I think I’ll need more space for my books

Maybe it’s because I am not married yet nor do I have a baby, so I have never felt how it is to have a baby. But I find the most baby blogs I have ever seen are way too childish with all those smileys which make the page load so slow. IMHO, these are the reasons why parents keep a baby blog:

- To keep all the memories on one site
- To let people know what’s going on with their babies

And many more. I understand that parents are happy and proud for their babies, they want people to know what is going on with their babies, but if I get a child and want to have a baby blog, I’d blog in a mature way because I know that what I want is to keep all the things happened to my baby memorized so I don’t need to pretend to be my baby and don’t want to fool people around to make them think that my baby posts its entry because they know that a baby has no ability to type something on the keyboard. So, in short, people know that I am the one who type and I don’t want them to think that I am a childish mommy.

I have ever liked smileys on blog, but then I started to think that smileys eat my bandwidth and make the page load slowly. Time passed, I find smileys so childish, I know that smileys describe the expression of the blog’s author, I like smileys, but not as a gif images, text only. So, if I one day have a baby blog I shouldn’t create a gif image smileys, the page will load faster and I don’t want to waste the dial-up connection’s users’ time to wait till everything’s loaded on my blog. I don’t want to pretend to be a baby, I pretend to be a mother because then I am a mother who is proud to have a baby, not a mother who is proud to be a baby ;-)

Hell yeah, I am rude on this! But I just don’t get why mothers pretend to be the baby on their baby blogs because it can be considered as a lie and its one of the sinful activities, no?

And because most of the people are typing and everything is being typed on the computer, my handswriting became ugly and it looks more uglier now. I am going to write anything I can write and hope to get a nice handswriting back. I remember the time when i was still at school, i was required to have a nice handswriting and it also counted the marks of my examinations so when i actually had to get A + I got A - instead just because of my bad handswriting heheh … and if I was still going on having a bad handswriting, the teacher would give me a punishment to write about 500 lines of “I promise I will change my bad handswriting to a better one.” I was trying my best to write nicely and i finally could have a nice handswriting, at least the teacher found it better than before. I first tried to see how my other friends were writing and I silently followed how they wrote till i could have a good handswriting. The good thing I got from it was that i could have a similar handswriting as my friend who sat beside me. She’s a clever student in the class and I learnt to write nicely also by looking at how she wrote. One day, my teacher saw my handswriting, she was shocked and didn’t believe its my handswriting because it looked similar to my friend’s handswriting. She believed me after my friend told her she didn’t write it for me, eheheheh…

Once after I moved to this country I met my uncle who was born and raised in this country. I saw his handswriting and i was shocked because it really looked like a child’s handswriting. I was thinking how he was at school because according to me his handswriting couldn’t be read unless if he wrote using capital letters. I was thinking about what his teacher had thought and done to him before. Nowadays teachers probably don’t care how bad your handswriting is so long they still can read your handswriting, that’s what I think because if i have to admit, most people here have a bad handswriting and if the handswriting is nice then they have a similar handswriting; oval, big and the alphabets are way too close to each other. For those who live here probably know what i meant and know how the handswriting is. My dad still has an old style of handswriting which he has learnt from the elementary school. He never has a thought of changing his handswriting, nor does he know how to change. An old style, nice one but I unfortunately can’t read what he writes heheheheheh …

I want to go away …

I meant it … I got a very bad stomach ache …

I am the guy person who wants everything in once

hmm … wait the minute please …

am I a girl? :D

I feel disappointed of myself, I do have to practise more and I am going to have a book marathon. From one book to another book. And I probably will review the books I’ve read soon as what I’ve ever done before on the multi-log.

See ya!

Blogsome has been a nice and excellent free wordpress’ weblog. Even though it’s better than blogger, I will have to give my opinions about this. For the admin, don’t get upset if you read this. Take this as something you need to build and change.

Yesterday when I was browsing through Blogsome Forum, I was searching for the Previous and Next entry tags but I didn’t find it. Well, my opinions about the forum itself are:

- The first thing I thought when I was browsing through its forum was that the administrators themselves don’t really seem to have an obsession to help the users
- They don’t even reply the questions on the forum
- They don’t seem to fix the problems.
- They don’t sound enthousiast of developing Blogsome itself. Otherwise they’d have helped the users and fixed the problem.

As all the blogsome users probably already knew, the WP php Tags on this blogsome are very different than the original PHP tags which I have seen in my real WP blogs. Don’t think I am a newbie to weblog’s world if you just see my archives and first weblog’s post. I’m a newbie on Blogsome, but not in the weblog’s world. Why don’t you, at least, develop your Blogsome’s wiki more and give the list of Blogsome WP tags there?

Users probably care if you tell them you’re busy. But not all of the users agree. Look at another web developers, the forums and how they develop the weblog’s tool. Users have always been a number one priority, they are so friendly to help them till the problems are fixed.

But this?!? Come on! Please answer what the users have asked on your forum, they haven’t gotten your replies. Don’t tell me you are lazy. If you don’t support the users, how can the users support you?