Okay, here it is

Or this? Better, huh? LOL

You know that both of those things aren’t good, uh? I just don’t like the way how the non-smokers do to the smokers, banning cigarette’s advertisements everywhere. But to my confusion, they don’t ban alcoholic drinks advertisements as: Heineken, Amstel Beer, Budweiser, or just another alcoholic drinks. Which one is better? Drinking alcohol or smoking? I know, none is good but can you take a conclusion about what someone will do after smoking and after drinking alcohol? Who will be more dangerous? The drinkard one or the smoker? Huh? What will someone do after smoking? s/he will just do the things which s/he does as usual, her/his daily activities! But after drinking? Someone can be more sensitive, abusive, and s/he mostly doesn’t know what s/he does because s/he’s drunk. On the next day we will get pain in our stomaches and will try to remember what we have done last night. Get regret? Sure if it’s bad happening!

I admit I am a smoker, but I just don’t like to start drinking because I am still trying to quit smoking and so I don’t find a need to drink. I as a GF won’t be worried if my BF goes somewhere with a cigarette in his pocket, because then he just smokes, he won’t become crazy after smoking. But still, people seem to accept drinkard more than a smoker, while I become scared if I see a drunk man at a station, walking through the station hall and looking at me (I won’t be so scared if he’s just smoking).

You know the Friendster and Orkut, right? I find the things inside the communities are so nonsense although I’ve met my childhood friends on friendster. I only appreciated some of the testimonials because those came from the people whom I know in my real life. The other? We only met each other on the net so I don’t know whether they gave me testimonials because they really had an opinions about me or because they wanted me to give a testimonial back to them. From what I’ve read on another weblogs and on the chat, most of them said,”I give you a testimonial, give it back to me okay” or that they seemed to have a friendster fight about the buddy lists. I have terminated my account on Orkut long times ago just because Orkut is slow and I didn’t find a need to sign in, besides, a guy stalked me there. I never bother how many buddies you have on your friendster nor do I bother how many buddies I have on my own friendster because … why must I? And why must I bother how many testimonials my friends have and how many I have? I don’t care, seriously.

What kind of things do I care actually? On the net I only care for the host (own site and domain name) still I am waiting for the domain name to be active, I don’t know whether my friend lied to me or not but in fact that I got it for free (domain name plus 200 MB of disk space and 5 GB of bandwidth) so all I can do is just wait for the domain name without sighing to my friend why it’s not active yet. If I have bought its domain name I should have sighed to the webmaster of course. The other thing I also care is the Google PR. I don’t know why I like seeing it higher and higher. My other site has now 5 PR and I was so shocked. This blog only has 2 PR hehe :D I miss managing something on the own site, dropping and backing up the database MySQL, making a new CSS file for the layout, installing some scripts and so. I like Word Press and Text Pattern, I’ve ever installed Text Pattern but I’m still finding out how it works. Do you have credit card? Then go to Dreamhost, sign up for Crazy Domain Insane and you will then have to put a code there, put 777 and you only have to pay for about 9 dollars in a year :)

Now about webloggers, I’ve read so many weblogs from different countries and I’ve to admit that I like how the most Pakistani blog. It’s not because my SO is Pakistani, but their way to blog is so different, I like reading those weblogs. And I don’t mean to insult my original country but their way to blog is mostly kiddos with all those smileys, shoutboxes, etc. I only like a few of them and I never say that I am a great weblogger ever LOL I am just giving my own opinion about them, I compared each weblog.

About the Da Vinci Code, honestly I find it so ridiculous, the author confused everyone and when I read about the Bible story it annoyed me a lots because it’s not true at all. If a non believers read it they probably would get lost about what’s true and what’s not true and I think that the other believers would laugh if they think it’s true.

Some people just can’t change, I’ve experienced this. They judge other people without admiting their own faults, they just think they are the best in the universe. And don’t blame me if I say that most of them are guys, why? Because I’ve experienced it with guys! Always with guys! With girls?!? From all my girl friends I only know one girl who thinks she knows everything and she keeps judging someone else. Now, Islamic vs Christianity for the example, I don’t mean to make other religion down but let’s take a reality. In Islamic world, according to me, guys are more higher than girls, even woman walks behind the man, lots of women aren’t allowed to work, just take a look at an Islamic countries, this time I give Indonesia for the example. Women are allowed to work, women aren’t supposed to walk behind the men, but still, men are much higher than women. Now, let’s go to Christian countries, are women free to do lots of things? are women walking behind the men? Are women not allowed to go outside without their men?

And so about relationship, it’s difficult to change someone who thinks he’s right, difficult to change someone’s behaviour. I feel that it’s like a relation between someone who comes from a high educated family, or just someone who lives in an open minded country and a villager. His mind isn’t that widely opened to the outside world, his opinion is so low. I don’t mean to insult, but it is as what it is, if you were me you’ll get what I meant, you’ll feel the same. It’s even worse if that someone is so immature, he needs to grow up, he needs to eat more bread of life.

Since I was at the basicschool, the school required us to have a ceremony every monday morning, I had to wear a complete uniform. So I was standing there under the sun, singing the national song while they were putting the flag till it’s up, listening to what the schoolhead said and all the ceremony shit stuffs. For about 10 years I have been required to attend it on monday and to my confusion is that it just became a habit for them every monday. I think it’s just because the teachers have also been required to attend a ceremony when they were still studying. I really don’t find a need to have ceremony every monday!

Now you ask,”why?” Let me tell ya! Does America do that every monday at school? Do another countries do that? Does America follow the rules? Answer: they do follow even though they are not having ceremony on monday morning and I might say that I’ve never had a ceremony since I live here. But, look at the country I was born in, they have ceremony, even the students can tell you easily about the shit things they’ll get during ceremony because they remember it already. But none follows the rules and what are written in the constitution. All of those are made to be contravened, polices are paid by a wrong driver to shut up, there’s discrimination between religions, races, etc. So? Why must they have ceremony every monday? What’s that for?!? All of them are just making monday a shit day! You teachers and schoolhead must have opened your eyes for doing this monday nonsense’s ceremony! And you students, open your eyes, too! Don’t get fooled by your schoolhead to stand up under the sun and follow all the shit stuffs till it’s finished, it only burns your skin, YOU FOOL!!!!

Sorry, rude yes I know! But I feel annoyed that I had to attend a ceremony for years!

My notebook, I use you every damn day. Typing on your keyboard is better than typing on an apart keyboard which has too higher and hard keys that make my fingers pain. Every morning I open you after having coffee in my left hand and burning a cigarette. You have been formatted so many times due to the sickness by the fucking virusses and fucking unappreciated programs which were automatically downloaded when I used the fucking Internet Explorer. Thanks Firefox for the safety, for the sake of my beloved notebook! My notebook, you’ve never complained to me when I was so fucking bored to use you, while I’ve also used you to apply a job, while I’ve used you to do lots of things.

You’ve been poured by a coffee because of my own damn stupidity when I was staring at you without realising that I had a fucking cup of coffee in my left hand. I was shocked and tried my best to clean you, even if I had to clean you with my own clothes, I should do, because all I want is that you’ll still be working! That’s all. Don’t ever worry if I put you in a hidden place when I am so fucking bored to see you and to do something on the net, it’s not that you’ll not be used anymore, but you have to be sure that I will use you now or later. Sure you have to be, because I take you and use you again now. As long as you’re not defect! So please, don’t be defect due to my own fucking stupidity!!!

And hey … virus! Fuck you, asshole! Thanks Norman to kick the fucking virusses from my notebook!!!

ahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahaha …

P.S: Norman is not a guy!!!! It’s an anti virus software!!!

mOuhahhahahahahah!

:P

Maybe it’s because I am not married yet nor do I have a baby, so I have never felt how it is to have a baby. But I find the most baby blogs I have ever seen are way too childish with all those smileys which make the page load so slow. IMHO, these are the reasons why parents keep a baby blog:

- To keep all the memories on one site
- To let people know what’s going on with their babies

And many more. I understand that parents are happy and proud for their babies, they want people to know what is going on with their babies, but if I get a child and want to have a baby blog, I’d blog in a mature way because I know that what I want is to keep all the things happened to my baby memorized so I don’t need to pretend to be my baby and don’t want to fool people around to make them think that my baby posts its entry because they know that a baby has no ability to type something on the keyboard. So, in short, people know that I am the one who type and I don’t want them to think that I am a childish mommy.

I have ever liked smileys on blog, but then I started to think that smileys eat my bandwidth and make the page load slowly. Time passed, I find smileys so childish, I know that smileys describe the expression of the blog’s author, I like smileys, but not as a gif images, text only. So, if I one day have a baby blog I shouldn’t create a gif image smileys, the page will load faster and I don’t want to waste the dial-up connection’s users’ time to wait till everything’s loaded on my blog. I don’t want to pretend to be a baby, I pretend to be a mother because then I am a mother who is proud to have a baby, not a mother who is proud to be a baby ;-)

Hell yeah, I am rude on this! But I just don’t get why mothers pretend to be the baby on their baby blogs because it can be considered as a lie and its one of the sinful activities, no?

And because most of the people are typing and everything is being typed on the computer, my handswriting became ugly and it looks more uglier now. I am going to write anything I can write and hope to get a nice handswriting back. I remember the time when i was still at school, i was required to have a nice handswriting and it also counted the marks of my examinations so when i actually had to get A + I got A - instead just because of my bad handswriting heheh … and if I was still going on having a bad handswriting, the teacher would give me a punishment to write about 500 lines of “I promise I will change my bad handswriting to a better one.” I was trying my best to write nicely and i finally could have a nice handswriting, at least the teacher found it better than before. I first tried to see how my other friends were writing and I silently followed how they wrote till i could have a good handswriting. The good thing I got from it was that i could have a similar handswriting as my friend who sat beside me. She’s a clever student in the class and I learnt to write nicely also by looking at how she wrote. One day, my teacher saw my handswriting, she was shocked and didn’t believe its my handswriting because it looked similar to my friend’s handswriting. She believed me after my friend told her she didn’t write it for me, eheheheh…

Once after I moved to this country I met my uncle who was born and raised in this country. I saw his handswriting and i was shocked because it really looked like a child’s handswriting. I was thinking how he was at school because according to me his handswriting couldn’t be read unless if he wrote using capital letters. I was thinking about what his teacher had thought and done to him before. Nowadays teachers probably don’t care how bad your handswriting is so long they still can read your handswriting, that’s what I think because if i have to admit, most people here have a bad handswriting and if the handswriting is nice then they have a similar handswriting; oval, big and the alphabets are way too close to each other. For those who live here probably know what i meant and know how the handswriting is. My dad still has an old style of handswriting which he has learnt from the elementary school. He never has a thought of changing his handswriting, nor does he know how to change. An old style, nice one but I unfortunately can’t read what he writes heheheheheh …

Blogsome has been a nice and excellent free wordpress’ weblog. Even though it’s better than blogger, I will have to give my opinions about this. For the admin, don’t get upset if you read this. Take this as something you need to build and change.

Yesterday when I was browsing through Blogsome Forum, I was searching for the Previous and Next entry tags but I didn’t find it. Well, my opinions about the forum itself are:

- The first thing I thought when I was browsing through its forum was that the administrators themselves don’t really seem to have an obsession to help the users
- They don’t even reply the questions on the forum
- They don’t seem to fix the problems.
- They don’t sound enthousiast of developing Blogsome itself. Otherwise they’d have helped the users and fixed the problem.

As all the blogsome users probably already knew, the WP php Tags on this blogsome are very different than the original PHP tags which I have seen in my real WP blogs. Don’t think I am a newbie to weblog’s world if you just see my archives and first weblog’s post. I’m a newbie on Blogsome, but not in the weblog’s world. Why don’t you, at least, develop your Blogsome’s wiki more and give the list of Blogsome WP tags there?

Users probably care if you tell them you’re busy. But not all of the users agree. Look at another web developers, the forums and how they develop the weblog’s tool. Users have always been a number one priority, they are so friendly to help them till the problems are fixed.

But this?!? Come on! Please answer what the users have asked on your forum, they haven’t gotten your replies. Don’t tell me you are lazy. If you don’t support the users, how can the users support you?

This life can be imagined as a bridge. A bridge is used to connect two different sides, it is the way to have a good communication from one to another side. First, people will have to prepare the things to make a bridge till it’s built. But when the bridge is broken, people can’t connect each other and they have to rebuild it again.

When someone finds her/his partner in another side, they build a bridge of life to connect each other and to know each other more till the marriage. But when the bridge is broken, they will have to rebuild it and try to change the bad attitudes in the past with the better one. Restart the new life. Reborn.